Wtf is wrong with me

Idk how to explain this well or what it means or why it happens but I just had a situation I'd like to share so maybe someone can relate... Or at least tell me what's wrong.

My whole life this has happened but for the first time in my 23 years has it affected me this bad to wear it physically affected me.

I've had dreams about bugs before that usually end up being nightmares and when I wake up I feel "scared."

I also used to get severe night terrors as a kid with all the works, unable to sleep wetting the bed for years and had a few episodes in my teen and a few as an adult but it happened more often from ages maybe 4-10

So this time I had one of those nightmares about a bug and it felt like hours and it exhausted me. I'm also on my period so I got up and had to sit there for like 15 minutes bc my body physically couldn't touch anything around me like the moment I felt the tampon it made me sick for one but it immediately flew out of my hand and I couldn't even look at it bc of the texture and shape of it. And I have to vocalize my discomfort and talk myself out of the weird gross feeling. My mind gets full of the invasive thought that came from the nightmare and I was physically frozen. I kind of relate these types of dreams with the ones where it feels like my teeth are falling out or cracking or whatever it may be bc I get stress nightmares and that's one of them I get a lot and don't get the bug nightmares super often but it sucks when I do for sure.

It's so hard to explain everything though like I can't describe my exact feelings or anything or how it's affecting me perfectly so it sounds like really stupid but in the moment it really does suck and cripple me. Idk ...