I just need to vent..

Don’t get me wrong, babies are a blessing no matter the story... and it’s probably just my hormones talking —but I’m 7 weeks pregnant. This was completely unplanned as my boyfriend and I have only been together nearly 4 months (officially. known each other about a year) currently we live an hour apart in two separate states.. and the original idea was to move in together towards the end of summer, then see how it was like living together before we brought a child into our relationship. Well obviously things didn’t go as planned. I’m just nervous to have a child with someone I don’t even love... what if l never end up loving my boyfriend? I care deeply about him and I want to be with him of course, but it’s too early to know what the future holds for us. I have a 4 year old from a previous relationship, which also makes me scared to be a single mother of two with two different fathers. I’m only 23 and I feel like with all of this on my mind it’s starting to put me in a depressive state. I currently feel disconnected and not myself, I don’t even want to think of the word love or even be affectionate with my boyfriend atm. This really could just be the hormones but I don’t know how to cope with how I’m feeling.