Warning loss

I found out i was pregnant on july 4th i ended up in and out of pain 1 week ago. 4 trips to the emergency room and emergency surgery later i find out my pregnancy was ectopic and burst. I had to have a fallopian tube removed due to this. Its only been a little over 48 hours since my surgery. I keep going back and forth between numb and crying my eyes out. Now im a ball of emotions and im struggling to process. I know i haven't given myself time but i have no one to talk to either. Im feeling very down does anyone have any positive experiences after something like this?? I feel so alone.