Will I ever find something genuine?

I have alway been a hopeless romantic .. and not that I feel I need a relationship but if I like you I can definitely become attached easily and will love you no matter what.. I seem to wear my heart on my sleeve a lot but I’ve come to the realization I can’t help it and that’s just me..

I always wondered though.. why do all my male partners seem to use me almost or treat me bad.. I’m nothing but good to them & I care for them.. but they just lie to me knowing it hurts and makes me cry sometime I’d really like to just have something real for once .. but I don’t know how to go about it I just wish I had someone who wanted me for me.