Loose vjay (written tmi)

History: my husband and i were virgins when we got married. After the initial struggle to break through, i was surprised at how soft, squishy, and loose it was inside. I felt his penis on the entrance but it seemed to disappear inside. Not what i expected but couldn't talk about it with anyone.

Anyway. Months later, i noticed he has sex with me only by trying to get only his tip at just the entrance and a few cms inside if am lucky. And i hate the sensation actually because it feels hard and dry. But also he feels distant...it is all weird.

Other times he will keep gettig out completely with every thrust just to go back in because he loves the sensation and tightness at the beginning but it introduces so much air into my vjay that at some point his thrusts sound like am releasing gas. If he does deeper thrusts, he tries going in side as if in search of my virginal walls and even that gets uncomfortable. Then there is the psychological bit where i start thinking about what he is doing and why instead of being in the moment which serves to turn me off more.

I enjoy deeper thrusts where our groins touch and i feel some sensation on my clitoris too.

Am i loose or is this normal? How do i make it more pleasant for both of us to enjoy deeper thrusts? Or those shallow ones he likes.

Ps. The entrance is still tight (i think) because if i go for long without sex, it is actually a little uncomfortable to resume sex. But not even 10% as uncomfortable as it was losing virginity of course.