HPV and/or Herpes friends?

Hi! So super tmi, I was born out of rape. The biological mother was 15, the father was 23. (I was immediately put up for adoption) And with that.. came passing on Herpes to me. I’ve always had it. Though oddly, I only get ‘outbreaks’ on my left arm. I’ve always thought that was super weird. Anyways:

In March of last year I was also diagnosed with HPV as well. No idea how I’ve got it. I now have precancerous cells on my cervix at 22, HPV & Herpes. I feel SO dirty for having an STD, & STI that I cannot control. The feeling of being a mistake and a dirty gross one at that. ANYONE going through anything similar? The pre-cancerous cells on my cervix is what’s sending me over the edge. Like OFCOURSE this would happen as well.