Advice

I was in a relationship with my boyfriend for 3 years. Throughout said relationship he has cheated on me a total of 6 times. I know everyone has different opinions on cheating, but from my perspective what he did was cheating. He texted other women paragraphs about how beautiful they were, insisted on nude pictures and possible future sexual relations. I forgave him the first time which was in December of 2019 (we got together April 2019), and all the other times after that. But I started to not forgive him anymore. Every single time I caught him he apologized and insisted it didn’t mean anything, it was a mistake, he wouldn’t do it again, blah blah blah. I listened to that, but then finally came to the fact that he was only sorry that he got caught. He had no intentions of stopping. This being such a long relationship, and so much time being invested I did not know what to do other than be distant until I could come to a conclusion. I finally decided that I couldn’t be with him anymore. It was extremely damaging to my mental health and self esteem. Once he realized I was finally serious, and that I was done, he cried to me. Insisting he would change and be the boyfriend he always should have been. He even wanted me to have access to all his things all the time and even have his location (which a part of me knew would’ve been held against me if I agreed to it). I held my ground, and broke up with him. Now, I tend to lay in bed at night and constantly think about him. The good things about him and wondering whether or not I should go back. This brings me to the question, should I? What do you think?