Under arm fat TMI

So I’ve had this about 8 years.. only after each pregnancy (4) it kept getting worse.. well now it’s so fatty and looks like extra pair of boobs I can fit the fat in my hands, I’m very self conscious about it and insecure, I never wear tank tops, people will ask what’s that or what happened? One person actually said “holy shxt your growing a third boob” and then I stopped wearing tank tops, I wear oversized tshirts, and sweaters, sports bars because they are less uncomfortable when squishing them, regular bras don’t exist to me because the wires leave nasty sores and scars, I finally went to a doctor about it and he got me so excited about removing them in a few days, but the. I told him I breastfeed so I have to stop breastfeeding before I get them removed.. 🥺 so I’m quitting breastfeeding my almost two year old cold turkey, well it’s been a day and it’s hard because she’s clingy now.. and cries a lot for me.. but she got herself to nap twice without me.. hopefully bedtime won’t be a hassle.. she needs her own bed too because we co sleep.. but yeah just thought I’d share if anyone else goes through this or has this problem too.. the surgery is completely covered if it causes problems in your daily life and all that stuff..