Just need to let it all out.

I just got out of a almost 3 year relationship two days ago. i’m only 18 so i’m a little confused and i’m a lot of pain. i know it was for the better and honestly i’ve been emotionally out of it for a couple months. but i’m still crying and feel completely lost . i don’t know how to go through out my days now. i truly did/do love him and care deeply about him it. it was just one of those things where it was the same and we were forcing a relationship that deep down we knew wasn’t going to work. we both wanted different things in life. but i guess i was expecting to be friends after . or something because i didn’t necessarily want him out of my life . i just knew a relationship was holding both of us back . im confused on the way i feel . and i wish this would all just go away. on the bright side i have amazing friends that have been by my side since it happened. checking on me constantly making sure i’m okay . so that’s made me feel better.

Thank you for letting me rant.