How to spend more time with myself ?

Me and my bf have been together for a year now. Ever since we met, we’ve been hanging out. We live on campus and our dorms are nearby. Since it’s been since COVID, we mainly only hung out with each other. We don’t have any other friends here (far from home).

I love being around him, he’s sweet, supportive, accepting, open, a good listener, loyal, and we can be our goofy and gross selves around each other. We have a similar humor that I haven’t met in anyone. I’ve never felt this comfortable around someone before, especially dated. But, since we’ve been hanging out every day together, I’ve been feeling kind of bored. I feel guilty thinking that and I don’t want to. I end up thinking about the idea of dating other people and it scares me.

I have days where I think about staying home, but I get tempted *every time* to hang out with him. He’s accepting that I have a life and isn’t possessive towards me at all. I just don’t feel comfortable around others that much anymore to want to hang out. I’m so used to seeing him every night.

I want to hang out with other people. When we were apart for school break, it was easier for me to do my own thing.

I think about breaking up but it makes me afraid because I don’t want to lose him at all. It hurts imagining not talking to him ever again. I love sharing my life with him, doing things with him, having and I want to share more of it, but I need to spend more time with myself and get back my independence. It feels hard to let go though. I keep thinking “Today, I’ll stay inside by myself” but always end up spending it with him. It’s never ending. I feel stuck sometimes.

All I do is go to class, take long naps, do HW, meet up with bf, then repeat. We both don’t drive (both anxiety) and I’ve been staying inside for months now due to my depression. I’m trying to get out more but currently can’t because of it.

Similar experiences? Advice?

Please and Thank you!