Dont get me wrong i am so so so happy and in love with my little bean.. and i am so excited to be a mother and cant wait for my baby to be here.. its just before i got pregnant i had this idea that i was going to love it! I was going to do cute things with my belly and wear cute close and have a pregnancy journal and all that.. well i have been deathly ill sense i got my positive.. ive been diagnosed with hypermesis and there watching my gullbladder.. i have lost 20 pounds that i didnr have to lose in the first place i am barkey hanging on at 85 pounds.. ive been to er a few times to get fluids because i havent kept anything down for about 6 weeks now.. i just feel miserable i can barley lift my head up.. or showered cuz that makes me more sick.. i live with my SO but for the last 4 weeks ive been staying with my mom because he works long hours and my mom wants to care for me.. but i miss him terribly and he misses me he wants me to come.. i just cant right now.. my tummy is so empty it hurts i eat and it just comes right back up.. i dont know how much longer i can take of this.. nothing helps no anti nausea medication or anything.. i really feel im going to die if it doesnt ease up soon.. if i would of known it was going to be lie this i would of not wanted to get pregnant ever.. but i really want my baby.. i wish we were only pregnant for 12 weeks instead of 40!:( i just feel so terrible i feel like i cant give my baby the nutrition it needs but im doing everything i can to get the baby it.. i just cant keep it in long enough.. i feel like my baby is starving because of me.. even though im trying my hardest.. does anyother mom feel this way???