Should I stop initiating?

I’m postpartum and got cleared to have sex. For months now, my partner has not initiated or seemed interested. I feel like he’s only doing it because I display interest in it so he goes with it so he doesn’t upset me. I’ve tried telling him over and over again that I want him to initiate, ask why he’s not interested, etc. and he doesn’t give me really any answers. One time when I was pregnant and we had a really bad fight, he said it was because he isn’t attracted to me, but then he took it back and apologized saying he didn’t mean it. I feel like the last straw for trying was this morning - I got a new sex toy and used it today to give myself my first postpartum orgasm. I was going to tell him and try to dirty talk him. He called me to talk about something else and was just like “hey horny ass” and laughed and then didn’t say anything else about it. It made me mad because I keep trying and trying and trying and get literally nothing. Probably hormones talking, but I really want to just start using the toy instead of initiating and then reject tf out of him like he does to me.