Breastfeeding & Mental Health

I would like to "journal" on here how mentally and emotionally challenging my breastfeeding journey has been.

I had a c section and my milk came in late , I had to supplement with formula , I then realised I have a low milk supply, I bought lactation cookies , took fenugreek, made the jungle juice , eaten oats and porridge . In due time, The cookies finished , the jungle juice ran out , making porridge and oats each morning was tiresome and I stopped taking the fenugreek 2 days ago ......

My breast didn't produce milk throughout the night today and my daughter woke up to empty breasts 😔

I feel like a disappointment to myself and her , I know she's fine with formula but "Breast is best" and that phrase hurts.

My helper(maid) basically said she can see how mentally I'm no longer okay and as a soon as she said it , I immediately played it off as sif she's losing it whereas I was .... , " am I slipping? " is what I asked myself and ultimately made me feel like I'm unfit to take care of my child .

I've made porridge and eaten it , I took my fenugreek pills and I'm back to trying . THIS ALL HAPPENED TODAY and its not even 10:05am

It's Hard , I'm going through the most but I'm trying.