Same shit it’s always been

My fiancé and I got into an argument and I left our apartment and came to my moms house. I know that I shouldn’t have just left, but I was super annoyed. His nephew came over to visit and the little boy kept telling me to leave, that he doesn’t want me there? So that, coupled with our argument, just made me annoyed. It was only supposed to be for one night max but it’s been two weeks now. My fiancé practically won’t let me back. He said he’s really hurt and he needs time and space away from me to think about everything but that In the end we’ll make it work. During these two weeks I have barely seen him and when I do it’s for 10 minutes and twice of those times it was for sex or because he needed me to do something for HIS job. Today he was supposed to come see me and he said he would and he never came. I even called him and invited him over for dinner and he said no. This is exactly how our relationship was before, he would spend 0 time with me. Things only got better because I moved in and even then, we didn’t do a single thing together outside of the house in terms of activities, dates, etc. Not even on his days off or the weekends. Of course I talked to him about how I felt and that lead to an argument. It just seems like our relationship is declining. I told him that I cannot go back to our old relationship and that I would sooner end it before it got to that point. He promised me it wouldn’t but that’s exactly what I see happening. He makes time for what HE wants to do and gives me 5 minutes now and then. Even on the weekends I haven’t seen him. I tried to make plans out of the house and he says ok but never follows through like providing me with days that he’s free. I know that I should probably just leave but I’m so socially awkward, I suffer from severe anxiety, and I just cannot even imagine finding someone else. Sometimes I think it is not even possible. I don’t know how to meet people, how to get to know people, I’m extremely weird. And I do love him and would like to be with him but our relationship does not seem to be where it should for an 8 year friendship & relationship.

- I know I need therapy and I intend on getting professional help. Thank you all for the nice comments. I really am struggling.