I hate the TWW

So we’ve been TTC for 14 months. We have a fertility consultation in two months. So I’ve been through enough of the TWW to know how much it sucks. For whatever reason I feel like this month is the month for us… but I’ve said that before. My period is due today, still hasn’t started but still negative pregnancy tests. On 6dpo I had the bright pink spotting that would typically mean implantation bleeding. However, I feel like I’m just grasping at straws to hope I’m pregnant. Honestly I feel no different than any week before my period. The only difference is my acne isn’t as bad and I don’t really have my normal cravings I get during my period. How do y’all get through this wait while knowing you’re probably not pregnant 😭😭😭😭😭