confused

My boyfriend and i have been living together for almost a year. i’m 19 and he’s turning 22. i get this bad anxiety being at the house. we live with his family and i’ve been missing my mom a lot so i wanted to move back with her. it was a huge argument & he says he doesn’t want to live without me. i feel bad because i do want to live with him but this anxiety feeling literally eats me alive. i haven’t slept there in 3 days and nothing feels right but not even being at his house feels right. this is my first ever serious relationship and i feel like my emotions aren’t being heard. he tells me he’s so upset and that i should just live with him. but i’m also upset :( he said 50/50 would be living with him but going to see my mom. but my 50/50 would be me living with my mom and seeing him everyday. i just need advice that isn’t from family. even if it’s advice i prolly don’t want to hear i think i need too. i need to put my feelings first but it’s hard when i just want him happy.