Sexually frustrated??

So I have been trying to find doctors who will help me and prescribe me the right medication. I have had trichmonasis since last year when I broke up with my ex. I am focusing on myself and healing and don’t wanna be with nobody. I just wanna practice self love with my friends(if you get what I’m saying) but it’s so hard because I be like no and I look at myself like I can’t. It’s hard to be intimate with myself when I’m doing through all of this and it’s not my fault.