Hi all, so my husband and I are really in a not so great place.

He dropped out of school a week after i told him i was pregnant claiming he hated IT and wanted to follow his dreams of working with animals (the most hes done with animals is collect snails and build a terrarium with me.)

Well

Prior to all of this we were separated by over 3,000 miles of ocean and land.

We got engaged finally when borders opened up in 2021 but they closed again right when i left and then got married this year in 2022.

His family didnt want us living with them anymore we tried to find housing, but ireland had a major housing crisis.

We attempted to come back to the states but his visa was denied. I went home with him for one night and woke up and decided it was time for me to go. Not because i hated him or wanted to be alone. But because something told me we would struggle more and more if we stayed in Ireland.

Im now home in the US. I feel empty I feel lost, and unsure of myself. I got a job to get my mind off of it. My parents are saying I need to get it together and take care of myself but for some reason I only ever feel happy taking care of other things.

Like plants or small animals.

We are getting his Visa and hoping he makes it before the baby is born. But im scared and nearly want a doula which my parents are against as well and said i can do it on my own, im strong and dont need that support. My bestfriends live in other states and I just feel all over the place. Has anyone else been through this? I know I should be strong for me and my baby, but im scared im hurting my baby by being so sad all the time.