Struggled with ppa last year.

I’ve had bad anxiety since I was 19, however it used to be much worse to the point I couldn’t function or be alone because I was horrified something was going to happen to me and my kids would just be there alone. Thankfully it’s so much more manageable. We’ll when I was pregnant last year I stopped my medication cause I read it could cause issues ( small chance but it could) all the doctors I saw said I could safely take it but I couldn’t shake my anxiety of taking it so I didn’t.. well I was induced and a lot of people say Pitocin is really bad on the body and causes anxiety horribly after ( well I struggled for weeks and probably months with anxiety) to the point I got super anxious when my husband left because I was afraid of hemorrhaging or something. We’ll I’m currently almost 35 weeks pregnant ( two more days ) and I still struggle with anxiety daily. not as bad but still there, but my main concern is if ppa is going to hit me so bad again because this time it’ll be me and our one year old and newborn and 9 year old home when he’s at work. My 9 year old is a tremendous help, but I’m just wondering if I should talk to my doctor and see if I should start my medication again or wait till he’s born? She already gave me the okay to, but I’m worried that there could be risks