Do I need a break? Or break up ?

Lan

Hello- I am currently in a 2 and a half year relationship with someone I always thought I would be with forever since day 1. We have a home together, and a dog.

Recently , in these last 6 months, I want no physical touch in bed, no cuddling, and no sex. I feel horrible. I feel like I’m incapable of loving him any more. Or loving at all? Sometimes I wonder if I am too comfortable with him. If he even elbows me the wrong way i get mad. But I also think it’s two ways, I think he also is too comfortable with me and does things he knows bothers me. I want to take a break to find myself again, but he seems to be quick to jump to conclusions so then I ever scared (to lose him) and hide my feelings.

He seems to have no problems with our relationship- we’re just perfect in his eyes. I feel trapped. I don’t want to hurt him but I feel like I already am by not being able to give him the physical touch and sexual interaction he needs.

But also- why don’t I want to have sex with him? I don’t know if I’m closed off, but we can’t have normal sex. I feel like it’s forced in a sense of I’m doing this for him, and not for me. But I enjoy it?

It’s so hard to explain.

I just need any advice that I can get. I love him but I feel like I don’t love him enough.