Losing all hope😞

Jennifer • Been ttc #1 for 4 years my fiancé is 32 and I`m 32 will be going for IUI soon 😊
I have been ttc for 3yrs now. I'm on my 2nd cycle of clomid and I'm only 9dpo but seeing a bfn again just hit me again like every month😞 and to top it off my fiancé and me are at each other's throats about who's fault it is it's not happening😞 I'm so tired of feeling like this every month I'm so depressed and ready to give up😫 I just needed to vent I feel so alone in this 😢