The struggle with my depression ...

After i noticed nothing but negative comments jus makes things harder . Okay judge me for smoking but i CARE about my childs life if i didnt i wouldn't be asking for amy advice nor help , also with seekin it from my obgyn . God only knows how bad it is , suffering being a rape victim at 18 & becoming pregnant with his baby . Mind you this being my FIRST pregnancy ever , already dealing with issues within myself . Rather then sitting there thinking about taking my life away or this baby , smoking weed helped my anxiety & depression . Not being able to get the professional counseling i need for depression it was a helping tool for me . Yes i feel bad of course but I rather do that then pop prescription pills a docter will give me .. and also , NO im not just worried about cps it was jus something i questioned . Im not looking for sympathy from anyone but just the fact to see how other females talk down and can be so nasty when someone comes out and reveals their flaws , they get judged and talked about . But with that being said .. thank you for all the comments they just build me to be a Better mother and seek the help i do for my daughter . And i pray to GOD that he bless each and everyone of u ladies . Including myself & i Thank god for a HEALTHY UNBORN BABY !!