My story

At 22 years old my Husband and my 19 month old daughter are my best friends and pretty much only friends. I guess I like it that way. I don't have really any family and nether does my husband. Were highschool sweethearts and have found grace in being all each other have besides our one and only very special Little girl.

We both want more kids without a doubt. My baby fever is so bad that I'm still on birth control and still think every time my period is late or irregular that I'm pregnant so I go out and get a test. They always say Negative, (I'm still trying to figure out why my body has not picked it up yet! Lol jk!)

But that's not what this is about, this is about my perfect little angel and how she entered our world on March 6th 2014 at 3:26 pm.

I guess I should call this her story. We tried to conceive for two years and when I finally "gave up" that's when it happened and I didn't even know it.

I was almost Three months along when I found out I was having her, and nervous as hell! As we were in no place to have a baby we barley had a roof over our heads. I really wanted a boy so I was mildly disappointed when I found out it was a girl, and so nervous I would be a terrible mother to a little girl. My mother had six kids, three boys and three girls and she always treated us girls lower than the boys so i guess i learned it from her. The whole nine months I was caught in between being scared to be a parent and so excited to finally have my own bundle of joy. As I had practically raised three of my siblings through My Middle school years.

Well we finally had hit 40 weeks, my official due date was also my favorite singer in the whole wide worlds birthday Mr. johnny cash!

But our little lady was not quite ready for the big show.... so we waited.... and mommy hiked around the mountains with daddy in 3ft of snow to try to speed up the process..... then we waited some more and then finally we set a date for me to be induced.

March 5th, the day before the "big day" mommy and daddy decided to rent a movie called "hours" to watch, turns out the movie is about a man who losses his wife during an early emergency c-section, but the baby survives, mommy didn't sleep that night.... AT ALL!

March 6th 2014, The alarm goes off at 5:30 but mommy is already awake waiting for dandy to wake up... 7:00 am we get to the hospital walk in the room, and like a ton of bricks it hits me. We are here to have a baby, I see the cradle filled with blankets and Paper work, a pack of newborn diapers and wipes on the counter, The Typical hospital water cup on the bed side along with some newborn baby facts sheet. As I look out the window I think about my life and how very soon I will be holding my first child and tear up a bit.

8:00 am : mommy just got hooked up to a machine so they could monitor your heart rate. And no pictosin was started yet.

8:05 am Your heart rate dropped so low that every nurse at the station came fleeing into our room trying to figure out was going on.

8:30-8:35 am the pictosin finally got started.

From 9:00am to 2:00pm I had nurse sitting in my room constantly as they would normally have to come running back in as soon as they left. I had two Cervical checks during this time and never dialted past a 1.

2:30pm I received the epidural, shortly after that everything when down hill Her blood pressure went up and mine dropped. Her heart rate would go down and mine would go up.

At about 2:55pm my doctor came in to say and I quote

" if her heart rate drops one more time were going to have to do an emergency C-Section" as soon as he finished saying that the machine went off and her heart rate drooped lower than it ever had. And just like that everyone started to scramble I had two nurses preparing me to go the room and Also giving me the numbing medicine for the surgery. One was getting everything in the room gathered for baby, another was trying to tell me what was about to go on. A nurse walked in and handed my hubby some very Awesome Blue colored scrubs(:

At 3:10 I was being rolled to the room as we said goodbye to my grandma who had been there with us the whole time.

Not sure of what time it was but shortly after being rolled into the room and being highly medicated and Numb I started to puke everywhere and as the older gentlemen hardley holding the bed pain close enough to my mouth so I could make it in, I believe had a little more than his fill as my vomit hit his shoes.

At 3:26 pm I heard your first cry, and my eyes began to Fill with tears of joy, I look over at your dad and see he is already bawling. As he could see you coming before I could. The moment they held you up my heart was yours and I couldn't wait to kiss your little head. The doctor then told us it was a good thing they got you out when they did because you had started to poop in the womb.

My life had never been so complete and everything that was so wrong in my life at that time had just slipped away as soon as I saw you.

You taught me how to love unconditionally, and how to forgive those who do you harm. You also taught me about compassion and to take my time with everything. Having you Has taught me more about myself and live than anything else in my life. You were the prayer I prayed every night until I Conceived you and now your my prayer every night that your never taken from me. And at 19 months you have taught me my dear child that it is not about being the perfect mother but being all you can be and trying your hardest to give your kids the best life possible.

And if through my parenting you learn that love is the most important thing in the world then I have done my job right. Have compassion for others and always be honest, and in every situation try to do the right thing. That's all I pray as your momma and I love you Leighton!

I also hope to have my second child Vbac, but I am so extremely nervous after how my first delivery went!