Hey all my lovelies.

I guess, I'm kinda posting this more for Danandphil, than anyone else.

When I was 8, my daddy died. I was his little princess, and I didn't know how to cope! I ate everything in sight. I would sneak food, hide it, whatever I needed to do. I was already a chubby kid, so, I obviously gained weight.

I didn't know how to cope with life! I was so young, and I didn't understand why my daddy had to die. That was the moment I stopped believing in God.

Kids are mean. They bullied me because of my weight. I went home crying every single day.

I would come up with any excuse not to goto school. I would eat, then stick my finger down my throat to make myself puke, so I could say I was sick.

When I was 15, I took every single ibuprofen we had in the house, plus the welbutrin I was on, and Lexapro. I had my stomach pumped that night. I was in the hospital on suicide watch.

I was raped at a party not long after that. I was still a virgin. I got drunk, and this guy held me down in the back seat of my friends car and raped me. He dislocated my collarbone, and I needed surgery right after.

I was obviously prescribed pain pills. They gave me 5mg percocet. I remember when I first took them. I had the most amazing feeling of euphoria in the world. Nothing in the world mattered, and I was happy, I could forget about being raped. I dropped out of school that year.

My life no longer mattered. I was running around the streets of Detroit. I didn't give a fuck about anything other than getting high. I was raped at 16, 17, 22, and almost gang raped. I was stabbed, I was shot at, I was beat countless times, I had my ass beat, and they left me in a back ally to die. I've overdosed more times than I can remember, and I've been pronounced dead 10 times.

I hate when you talk about getting high, suicide, and depression, cause I know what it leads to. You don't want this life. I will always struggle with my sobriety and the things I've been through.

Take a good look at this picture. Don't put yourself in the position I put myself in. Please. Get help.