What to do next?

Ladies, need some advice or maybe just a shoulder to cry on. As I lay here in bed counting the days left of TWW where I can take a preg test (if AF doesn't greet me first) and feeling hopeless and wondering what next? What do I do if I get a bfn? I mean physically I know I can move on and try other methods but what next emotionally? I feel like a zombie living in a bad dream. Month after month bfn after another, taking a deep breath with a sigh, wiping away the last tear and walking out of that bathroom with my head up telling myself "don't worry next month will be your month!" I wish all the women and couples can all just get pregnant if they wanted. It's one thing to decide if you want children but it's another to be told you can't. Many have gone thru worse than me. What do you do? You can do something to distract yourself and thank goodness this hasn't affect my relationship with DH. But it comes back to the same thing and it has changed us. Tired of ppl asking if I'm pregnant BC I gained weight (from meds), ppl telling me I should hurry and have one now since I'm getting old, stories of "I got bfp after first month", "if u stop thinking about it will happen", or even hearing "oh just do Ivf and done!" as tho it were all that easy. Hoping for best but expecting worse. To anyone reading this: thank u for letting me vent and hope that our storks will visit us soon. Bless you all!