Abuse! (My story) ( A Word Of encouragement to the women being abused)

Hi my name's Lauren and I just wanted to tell you my story, I will not go into full details because it would be way to graphic so here I go!

When I was born I was very sick kid I was in the hospital until I was basically 7 years old I had a lung condition and heart problems I didn't have a mom or dad because drugs and jail was so much more important than me I basically raised myself cause after I was finally released from the hospital my mother took me only so she could get my check after I was eight my mom got married to a guy and he made her happy so I was happy until I watched him beat her every day and night and she would always tell me Lauren if a man hits you it's your fault all you can do is try and be a better girl for your spouse!, she proceed to tell me Lauren if a man rapes you it's your fault! Then added to it saying Lauren do everything a man tells you to if not you will burn in hell! ( you may ask why I'm telling you this? It's because this is part of the reason I never ran from what was happening to me) anyways I believed her after all she's my mom, mother knows best right? Least I thought that at the time boy do I wish to God I someone would of told me my mom was a crazy bitch not to listen to her !!! Anyways when I was 13 I finally told my mom that my step dad had raped me every night sense I was 10 years old. She didn't believe me, she slapped me in the face and kicked me out of the house. (Here's the thing I don't if she litterly didn't believe me or if she was kicking me out to get me the hell out of there away from him)

Anyways at the time I was dating a guy named Robert he was the guy of my dreams he was 17 bout to be 18 he never hit me once until we got married ( yes I got married at 14 years old to a 18 year old man and yes I had my parents consent although I wish they would of not done it) anyways after the honeymoon I made him dinner and it was cold he slapped me for the first time and the slapping turned into beatings and then that eventually turned into his friends joining in on hitting me I would just brush it off thinking it would get better, it would stop eventually, then I went to thinking I was worthless, I deserved it like my mom told me , I was wrong I didn't deserve it no one does ! ( REMEMBER THAT LADIES) and how one day I was 8 1\2 months pregnant we was bout to bring a beautiful healthy baby girl into this world in 2 weeks . well early that day I went too the doc alone cause he was at work and found out that he was gonna induce me cause the baby was so big already well I thought I would make a special dinner for my husband at the time to tell him the great news and it was cold by the time he got off work cause he was late his friends was with him and he got mad and said he didn't want to father a baby to a whore and other names he hit me and his friends hit me he ended up kicking me in the stomach wich killed the baby and him and his friends did the unthinkable two days later him and his friends were arrested for rape, attempted murder, and numerous others they have been in jail for 7 years, my x husband recently got out on parole (good behavior) and sence has been rearrested because of him stalking me.... Every sense that day I have been terrified of men completely it took me 2 years to even talk to someone about it and to even become myself again and still to did day my husband (current) can't even tell or get mad at me cause I have flash backs and will start screaming crying.

Any how you may be wondering why I am even telling you all this and no it's not for sympathy or attention please save you sympathy for someone else cause I don't want it or your pitty!!! That is the last thing I need!! The reason why I am telling you my story is cause I see a lot of girls these days , especially on here saying the hitting will get better, it will stop, he says he will/have change I just wanna tell you it won't change, it will not get better, it will only get worse and you chick deserve the world your a grift from God or whoever you believe made you.. you should be cherished, loved, worshipped ( not in that way but you get the drift) , you deserve roses, chocolate, anything you want you deserve it. Please I'm begging you/ encouraging you/ support you to leave his sorry no good ass even if he is just mentally abusive it hurts and damages you just as much as if he was physically abusing you.. I'm here to tell you that you are beautiful and worth it all please don't do what I did and stayed like a idiot cause I still think it's my fault that my baby died even though I know it isn't but still it crosses my mind so please leave, run, call the police, get a friend's or family members help! .. Anyways thanks for listening ladies!

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(Please note: I suck at punctuation and spelling, my eyes are very bad so I apologize in advance for the misspelling and lack of punctuation so there isn't no need to point it out to me or even comment on it for that matter! )

PS: any hateful, negative comments to me or anyone else who comments on this will be reported I do not tolerate bullying/cyber bullying it isn't necessary and it is uncalled for. It's childish this isn't highschool people don't act like it is !!!!!