I ran out of zest for Life...I want it back

Hi ladies. I am a 26 year old, mother of two beautiful little girls, ages 4 and 5. I am not even 1 year into my second marriage (1st one was a disaster). I love my husband, he treats me well. I love my daughters, they are so beautiful inside and out.

But I have no zest left. I have no energy or positivity or imagination or hope...

I love many different careers, I could probably do any of them if I really focused on just one....but I can't. And I get discouraged almost instantly.

I am really free spirited but I can't be with kids...and a husband...I don't know how to be ...anymore.

I stay home with our 4 year old because we don't qualify for vouchers for preschool but also my husband doesn't make enough to afford it. I only have my GED and STNA training and honestly don't want to do that again (did it for 3 years). I am very adventurous and love changing my settings often and exploring new perspectives and my hubby...not so much lol. I am laying in bed so depressed and exhausted emotionally because I am so dissatisfied with myself and the life I have created for myself. Nothing lites my fire anymore 😳. I feel defeated.

I wish I could afford a Life coach or some type of help. Have any of You ladies gotten out of such a rut? I have been like this for quite a few years now and I feel old and rotting...I have to change and I don't know how ...or I don't think I can...Idk. Advice please🙌