Baby shower 😬

So tomorrow is my baby shower and i feel like nothing is ganna go right . i feel like my boyfriend wont be there with me getting everything ready and that hes just not ganna enjoy it . i really want him there with me to help with everything and just be with me till everyone arrives but i know hes ganna make something up so he wont have to help . i just feel like im ganna be alone and i dont want to its suppose to be about both of us not just me 😯 . right now hes with his friends down the street and it makes me mad cause he just leaves and doesnt say anything and when i call he gets mad . like if you would of said you were leaving i wouldnt of called duh 💁. Idk i guess i just want him all to myself cause when hes with his friends i get mad and feel sad and unwanted and i feel like im boring him or something and ill cry . idk whats wrong maybe its horomones or something , sorry if this was a dumb post i just need to vent cause i dont have any girlfriends to talk to and it sucks 😭😩