Emotionally miserable . Sorry long

I'm due any day. 38w4d. I love being pregnant. And It hasn't been that bad symptom wise. . My husband is just breaking my heart over and over again. This isn't to bash him, or anything. I just don't have anyone to talk too. We got pregnant in October. He's touched me once in January. He won't even sleep in bed with me anymore. Just blames it on me not turning him on. If anyone knows what hotwifing is, that's what he wants. And it's not easily done pregnant. Guys aren't always into a pregnant chick. And since I'm now 9 months pregnant it's hard even feeling sexy or horny. . He acts like he doesn't love me an7ymore. Just have felt completely alone. I feel like I'll be laboring alone bc he's not a sympathetic person naturally. I don't think he'll know what to do or care what I'm feeling. Family isn't local, so they won't be present. And I don't include them in marital problems anyway. . Just feel so broken. I hate that our baby will be born in this awful environment. I don't get why he's acting this way. But he's so stoic and boxed in, he doesn't let me in. Just blames it on my boringness. I don't even know what to do anymore. He wants sexting, and dirty talk. So we do that. All the time. But there's no action behind the words bc I'm too pregnant to hotwife. And he won't touch me. So of course sexting gets boring. #frusterated. #cryingnonstop