I was wrong

I looked at my paper work wrong my next appointment when im 10 weeks. To everyone i was trying to cram everything into one but yes I am messed up but you would too if your life was like mine and yes I've just been thinking about what I'm gonna do haven't talked to my cousin yet but I just dont want her to feel bad anymore and no im not going to give my baby up because im fat i meant because of my health phydicslly and mentally because I lost my mother at 5 and I don't want my child to go through that. Also I have depression and anxiety and im very nervous about this. I hope that clarifies everything. and dont comment saying i need help ik I need help i have therapy every week. Im just very confusing