first pregnancy rant

As anxious as I am to meet my baby, I'm scared asf to go into labor. Like I really have to push a human out! My vagina could rip/tear/get cut! I could poop everywhere! I'm so insecure about my woman parts already & there's gonna be so many people in the room! I'm not even half way through my pregnancy & I'm already becoming afraid of the pain. I've read so many birth stories trying to prepare myself for anything but all I do is find out something new & add it to my list of fears. You women are obviously strong, but I don't think I'm strong enough