Will this pain ever go away?? 💔💔😢

After 2 miscarriages in 2 years everytime i see or hear someone having a baby or being pregnant i feel so sad. Of course i am happy for them and wish them a healthy pregnancy i feel sad thinking when will that ever be me??? Did i do something so wrong in my life that i dont deserve to be mother? I really thought things were going great when i found out oct 1 i was pregnant got to see baby heart beat a 6 weeks. Went back 8 days later the heart stopped beating. Idk how to recover emotionally.. how to have hope again that possibly i might get to have my beautiful rainbow baby... dont know what to do.. 😢😢