my story (long)

I'm 22 years old and I suffered from terrible depression. It started when I was younger I was the quiet kid in class I was always made fun of and it got so bad that I didn't want to go to school so I lied about being sick. My parents were never together so at one point I lived with my grandparents then I decided to try to live with my dad my father was quite abusive at that point I started cutting myself i would cut everyday and hide my scars no one knew except for my best friend. Over the years the cutting got worse and my depression got worse i thought about killing myself everyday I thought I was worthless and i wasn't wanted anywhere after a while I decided to move with my mom which happened to be a mistake you see my dad was physically abusive but my mom was emotionally abusive so my depression got worse. At 16 I met my ex fiancé I thought I was happy but at a young age I was stupid I gave him my virginity and he cheated on me I forgave him I was with him for 5 years he cheated on me a total of 4 times and he left me for another girl being dumb I took him back the last time he fucked me over was almost 2 years ago he cheated on me but I was living with him at that point I was at my breaking point I felt not wanted I was suffering mentally so bad that I just wanted to commit suicide I had my letter written out and I had pills I was going to take a few more minutes I would have done it but my best friend called me out of no where and she stopped me. I moved out of the house and moved to New York where I'm originally from everything was going great until I started talking to this guy i decided to move back to Texas to live with my mom plus my sister needed me so I met Joey and I fell for him I ended up having sex with him not long after that he left me for someone else plus I found out he gave me a STD which I got cured. Not long after that I started talking to this other guy and I guess I just needed some closer or something so I had sex with him but I don't regret it because it made me realize that I am attractive and what not. Now after months of being depressed I met my now husband who was actually my best friend for years I moved in with him and we are having a baby boy in February which we are very happy about sometimes i do get depressed but it's not as bad and I'm so glad I choose not to take my life that day it gets better it really does I just wanted to let everyone know that