Just need someone.. anyone !!? ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ™ˆ

Summer
So, I was supposed to get my last depo shot on August 8, 2016 and didn't go get it on purpose. Prior to that, I had been on depo for about 8 years (horrible, i know ๐Ÿ˜ญ) My boyfriend and I got together July 9, 2016 and decided that I should stop getting the shots because we want to start a family together, not necessarily right now but we definitely want it to happen. I'm sure you guys are like "okay, that's too soon", but we have history together and there's so much more to our relationship and we both truly feel that we were brought back together for a reason. Our relationship is wonderful, he's such an amazing man and I couldn't ask for better. All of our friends are having babies or have had them recently and I used to get happy for people, now I'm just kind of like "ehh.. yay! i wish that were us" ๐Ÿ˜ข
So. That brings me to this point... I finally got my period back on December 18 and have been bleeding ever since. Some days are lighter than others (bleeding) and some days I feel like it isn't going to end. On top of the bleeding, I have the worst and most painful cramps, back aches, and headaches I feel that I've ever had. ย My doctor keeps telling me that "it has to run it's course", which I understand, it just sucks to feel this way everyday. I haven't felt like myself since this shot has worn off. My horomones and emotions are just everywhere, I'm starting to drive myself crazy!! We haven't had sex but a couple of times, because I either just don't want to or I'm in too much pain to even try. The couple of times we did have sex, he didn't finish inside of me and I think it's because my boyfriend's getting super nervous knowing that I am able to get pregnant since I'm ovulating again and because it's of course our first child. So, I'm not sure if you'd call it TTC just yet or if it's just "If it happens, it happens." Either way, we're both prepared for the outcome of pregnancy. ย 
Ugh.. I don't know, I just never have anyone to talk to about this stuff because my mom and sisters are so into my one sister being pregnant and all of my so called friends are nowhere to be found anymore and my boyfriend, well.. He's a man lol. Any advice, tips, or just someone to talk to would be great & so much appreciated !! Thank you in advance!! ๐Ÿ˜Š