Pregnant and need to vent.

Well I have a 1 yo daughter who just turned 1 on December 29. On December 2nd we found out we were expecting again which I was happy with we weren't trying but we also weren't preventing either. We are barely making it with money and barely have any left over to do what we want I haven't worked since a couple months before I had the 1st bby. 

On Jan 10 we had our first apt and had an ultrasound and we found out we are having twins. I'm so devastated I know it's horrible but I kept saying before we found out how I wouldn't be happy if we're having twins and he we are. I feel bad because I know there's people out there that actually want twins so why me. I don't feel like we will financially be able to care for 3 babies if we're barely making it with 1. On top of that we just signed a new lease on a super tiny apartment that for sure won't be able to fit us all plus all of the new baby stuff and we will probably have to sign a new lesase here when it's time since we will have newborns. And we just got a new car that is super expensive and probably won't be able to fit 3 car seats in it. I know I'm probably going to have my mind changed when they get here but I'm so scared to money issues and the complications and I feel like I will have ppd since I already feel like I don't want them.  I have no one to talk to about this because everyone is so excited and I don't want to take their joy away. I just don't know what to do. Sorry if this is all over the place but thanks for reading.