fellow migrainers...I feel your pain.

I do not know for a face that migraines are my only problem. All I know is that for years I have been trying to obtain a viable diagnosis for what is going on with me. I've had many neurologists tell me there is nothing neurologically wrong with me. Yet still I continue to have neurological symptoms. 

Take the last week for instance. 

A few days ago...I think...I awoke like normal. Hoping that the day would be the day. The day would be the day I feel normal. I take my gabapentin like the doctor prescribed. Hoping it would help. It didn't. I became lethargic, unable to think. Felt sick throughout my whole body. Every act of even breathing was something I didn't even want to do. But I had no pain. So I struggled through the day. 

Then my speech became affected. It's like my mouth got lazy and words were coming out not sounding completely right. 

Then there was last night. 2pm the pain started. I had taken my gabapentin. My ibuprofen. My anti nausea. And it didn't work. By 6pm I had a full blown migraine. I fell asleep on my couch till 8pm. I woke up. Still had pain. More ibuprofen. Another gabapentin. My anti depressant. Yet the pain persisted. I grabbed my trash can for my nausea and slept on the couch. I awoke at 4am, I stood up and couldn't walk straight, bumped into many walls. My stomach rolled. But no more pain. I just felt ill. I drank water and laid back down. Woke up at 7 to get my daughter off to school. Forgot that she hadn't already gone off to school by the time my mother (who takes her every morning) pulled up. And that's when I started to become very nervous. I couldn't remember if I had taken my gabapentin that morning. Couldn't remember if my daughter had already gone to school. Couldn't remember the convo I had with my mother when she got back. I slept, while she watched my son. Still no pain. Woke up after two hours and decided to take a bath. I fell asleep in the bath tub. When I came out, I was conversing with my mother. We were joking and I stuck my tongue out at her. She noticed that when I stick my tongue out, it goes to the left. And I can't make it go any different now. 

It is now 10:30pm my time. My stomach is back to being upset, my whole body feels ill, and I am tired. I will be going to sleep soon to hopefully wake up tomorrow not sick. And hoping and continuing to pray that the numbness I feel on my left side will be gone. And that some damn miracle happens so I can live a normal life. I haven't had it in so long I forgot what that feels like.