RANT!!

So I went back to work today, while hubby watched baby girl since he's still on paternity leave. He had exactly 2 jobs: take care of the baby and please do the dishes.

I come home from work where I literally was on my feet the entire time, and immediately take over caring for baby girl. The kitchen is a disaster, dishes aren't done and the trash is overflowing. So now I have to clean all of that up. I have to somehow find the time to pump so he has milk for her tomorrow. And we have to run to the store to do grocery shopping, which I do while taking care of a screaming infant while he plays on his phone. I've been up and on my feet for almost 20 hours now. Literally the only time I've sat down is in the car. it's 1AM, I still have not pumped, I'm just now finished cleaning up the kitchen and I ask him to at least go upstairs for me to fetch me my pump so I can sit down and get that out of the way so that I can get a few hours of sleep before her 4 AM feeding. And he says no because "the baby wore me out today"...

I'm going to kill him. That's it. I'm so tired and frustrated and sore I just want to sit down and pump and I can't because I have a baby strapped to me because she's fussy and needs held, my pump is upstairs and I dont have the energy to get it myself, and my husband apparently needs to recover because he actually had to father his child for 6 hours today. Oh but when I complain that I need a break, he reminds me that it's "Not that hard". I love him, I do, and he's usually not this big of an asshole. But right now I just want to leave. I can't handle all of this.