9 mo REFUSES to sleep alone.

He could be dead asleep and the second I try to set him down, he SCREAMS like I'm beating him with a red hot poker. He could be so tired his eyes are rolling back and he can't hold his head up, but he still won't lie down. I love my son so much, but I'm becoming resentful of him because of this. I can't get five minutes to myself to eat or shower because he refuses to sleep for any amount of time if he's not on me. I'm SO tired of fighting him all day and all night. I wish I never would've brought him into my bed. All night he hits, kicks, slaps and thrashes and I can't handle it anymore.

No matter what I do I can't get him to sleep anywhere except in my arms. No matter how long I try he just screams and won't sleep. I don't want to do CIO, it seems so cruel, but I'm at my wit's end. I feel like at 9 months old I should be getting SOME amount of sleep and I'm not because he keeps me up all night kicking me and uses me as a pacifier. Someone for the love of God please tell me how to fix this before I lose my mind. I love my son so so much and I'm bawling as I type this because I'm so tired, hungry and dirty and he's crying but won't sleep and I can't take it anymore.