Is it me? Or no?

I've been dealing with this guy for 6 months , now with our lives we do go weeks without talking because we just get caught up in dealing with the shit that goes on with us ... but I was pregnant , I had an abortion I was 7 weeks and 5 days , we agreed to do it because we both wasn't in a position to take care of the baby now , I'm an intern and nobody going hire a pregnant girl , and he's dealing with this custody battle with his baby mom , anyways we agreed and we got it done .... now he haven't checked up on me idk how should I feel about that , like we was in the waiting room and he was there but his mind wasn't , it'll be a week since I had it tomorrow and I'm waiting on a " how you holding up " text , does that make me dumb?