OH REALLY!!!

So it's okay for him to raise his voice and say whatever, but when it affects me, I shut down abd don't want to be bothered, but it's ok for him to do so. I'm not use to men raising their voices at me, no one has until the guy I'm supposed to be with, might as well say I'm single. He raises his voice at me, curses and swears, I'm not confrontational and when I don't want to listen, I'll walk away from the phone, or hang up the phone. I'll break down or shut down because I don't feel like I'm an adequate enough person for him. I don't do anything, is attitude is disgusting and I try and avoid it at all cost, yet he doesn't think it's a problem, isn't that like abuse in some way. Never met his family, but they think I'm crazy for nor letting him help me, he hasn't veen helping me with anything, just paying Netflix and I took that back over 6months ago. Oh and it's long distance, I'm in this idgaf attitude because of him and he doesn't see a problem.