Idk what to do! But just cry & over think!

So it feels like my husband isn't my husband. I feel like I do wifey shit for a person who doesn't deserve to even have a wife. Anyways ....

He' chooses his family side. He "claims" he was backing me up but he wasn't ! He said it was my fault anyways. Which it wasn't it started from his half sister talking shit bout me w his ex gf. I didn't care but when I heard she was telling his ex gf our problems. Telling the ex that me & my husband been trying & that I cannot get pregnant. I got piss off & told her I didn't like that especially when it's his ex gf. Why tf she wants to know what's goin on in our life anyways.... besides the talking shit ! She was sending Off guards pictures of me sitting down eating that says "Fat shit fat shit!"

I told my husband. My husband tried to act like he snap on a text in a group message. & he said "That's all he can do!!!" I mean like wtf if my fxkn brothers or sisters talked shit bout him & took pictures of him w my ex I swear to god I'd beat tf outta them & block them outta my life! I fxkn love my husband ' I'd do anything for him!

But... it continues...

The half sister put in her ig bio that i should go back to the mental hospital & die cause im to ugly & fat for life! (& under says 'Gods anointed, Love jesus' !like tf ok weird ) ! But The reason why I went the hospital cause I tempted to kill myself serval times ! I have depression, suicidal thoughts & more but I'm kinda finally getting better but do still have thoughts. But then I posted on my sc "Who fucks with their half brothers brother!!!! That's fxkn gross" so everyone got mad saying they knew who I was talking about ! I didn't care cause it was totally about her! Then my husband came home from work saying if I posted bout his half sister I said Yeah! I did ! Because her bio is fucked up! & she won't stop talking shit!

Then he told me. "Take it down ! Your a fucking dumb cunt! " (I did take it down cause I was getting threaten) I just laughed at him!

Then he told me "You know I'll fuck you up right? Like I'd fxkn knock you tf out !"

I laughed more! & said "Are we married? Like seriously? Am I your wife! I swear your suppose to be backing me up no matter what! & I didn't even start shit!"

Then he got mad & punch me in the face! & said I can't leave!

I just laughed! Like literally I wanted to cry! When I laugh it's either I'm mad/sad or happy! But I was very pisst & sad! I blocked people outta my life cause they disrespected my husband. I even moved out of my parents house cause my siblings stole weed from him, my older sisters talked bad shit bout him ' I told them as it is & blocked them outta my life to ! Whenever they talk I ignore ! But with me he never stands up to his family for me! I always have to talk for myself! My husband never says a word but walks out leaves me with his sisters & his sisters friends questioning me ,I felt uncomfortable & he knows I'm not in good terms w any of them.

I just cant deal w this at all! Everyday it's hard ! All I do is cry & cry! Cause I can't take it !