Domestic Abuse

2 weeks ago, I finally reported my husband for domestic abuse.

For a couple days, life finally was looking up. I was happy. I wasn't depressed. It was just me and our son.

But then, he got out. I already had an emergency VPO (victim's protective order) on him, so he couldn't have contact with me or our son.

Then we go to court for it. On the baby's first birthday.

His lawyer asks me questions that are defending his actions (trying to kill me, pulling my hair out, he used his fingernail to rip open the inside of my ear). Asking things like "are you sure he wasn't trying to pick you up off the ground" or "well were you gone all night" "are you on drugs"

And I realized that this man who has caused so much depression. So much anger. Makes me weary of any man who even tries to be nice. I still flinch when someone moves too fast. I am mentally fucked up because of him. And he may not be punished at all.

The court already gave him our son 3 days of the week.

The system just doesn't care I feel.