Okay here we go... ever since I was 12 I have watched porn. Haven't watched it in a few months but here's the thing. I remember starting when I was 12 I would go on omegle and get guys Snapchat and sext them. I remember one time I found the first guys Snapchat I could find on there and sent him a picture of my boobs. It was a grown man... he looked disgusting... I was so scared.. And yes this was during when I was in middle school. I would even do this around my friends. One time I was at my friends house and we used her picture on kik to ger guys to talk to me. And one time I was with my other friend doing this on omegle and sending guys pictures of my cleavage over kik and them sending me dick pictures. Even one time my friends little sister caught me. I don't know why I was doing this. I continued and continued to do this. I haven't since about 2 years but I did it again last night over imvu. The guy viewed the picture on Snapchat and then deleted me. I wanted to cry. I felt so ashamed of myself. I don't know why I do this. I never have sent any pictures to anyone in my school. I have heard other girls doing this to people at my school, and them being embarrassed. But I don't know why I want to do this "imvu" sex crap. I am so ashamed. I feel like I'm disgusting. I'm a virgin, I have never stuck my fingers in myself to masturbate but I like use blankets..., but my ex did finger me, and I gave him a hand job. He basically just used me. I was even willing to let him have sex with me but he knew I wasn't in the right mindset. My first kiss the guy was overly experienced when I was in 7th grade and he felt me up when I just wasn't ready. Even when high school rolled around the same guy invited me to parties. I went there and let him do things to me besides sex. But I also let other guys do these things and me trying to drink and get drunk. I remember one time I was very drunk and and I remember him being on top of me on a bed then he carried me outside and took me to his car to try to make me give him a blow job. I have a lot of stories. Other things like smoking weed happened too. I have never told anyone that I do this. I feel unpure and disgusting. I wish I could take it all back. Someone please help me.