You ever find some some song lyrics that just fit? sorry about the language

I completely changed from that shit,

My heart cold now and you the one to blame for that shit.

My next relationship I promise I'll be trained for that shit,

'cause now I'm thinking like a nigga so I don't get played like a bitch."

(But we can fix this baby)

"Nah nigga it's too late for that shit.

(Why?!)

I lost myself, I been smoking more and drinking again."

(So...)

"Partying every night and randomly sleeping with men.

(What?...)

'Cause I just wanna fucking feel pretty again!"