opting to get induced 7 days early

I am 38 weeks and go to the doc today where I am going to ask to be induced at 39 weeks. nothing medical. but for my peace of mind. I cry almost daily due to the fear, terrified if I keep her in me something will happen to her. this has been a hard pregnancy and I thought I would lose her more than once. I can't slept most nights because i sit up and wonder and when I get up I instantly get depressed with fear. guys tell me does this make me a bad mom and wrong to want her out for these reasons. I feel like I am going insane but I am terrified 😭😭