So, when I was 19 I had a lot of issues and saw a doc who told me my likelihood of having children of my own without <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> would be slim. I never asked any questions, never got a second opinion, nothing. I had my first baby at 21 and she is perfection, and proof that, that doc was wrong.

We have actively tried to prevent another pregnancy but lately I'm getting a serious case of baby fever..

my husband has basically said, if you want to I'm game if not I'm ok too. I feel like deciding to have another human added to our life should be a bigger conversation than "eh, whatever you want". Especially if the journey to get there could be rather difficult and heartbreaking like that doctor said it would be.

I should add, when we conceived our daughter while dating, we didn't use protection BC we were exclusive, and told it wouldn't likely happen on its own easily (we knew the risks and were happy to face the consequences, obviously). We had unprotected sex for almost a year before I got pregnant. Could have been pure luck, or the doctor could have just been completely wrong, like I said.. I never asked many questions as I was young and stupid.

Either way, I know having two kids is much different than one.. and I don't want him to talk me into or out of it... I just want someone to have a conversation with because it's not like it's only my life will change. What if I miscarry, how do I explain that to our 4 year old. What if we can't get pregnant again, or what if it happens right away. How do I know I even want another kid.. or that I don't? Is it just baby fever because so many friends are having babies? Or do I really want to fill this need of having another?

I just want someone to help me feel a little less crazy.