No more babies for me. 😭😭

My last one ended July 8, 2016. Heart broken I was 14 weeks I almost died they took to long finding my ectopic pregnancy. He actually was developing normally but I was dying... due to the internal bleeding and inflammation ( I had a reconstructive surgery Jan 13, 2017) I found out that there was to much damage and my

Left tube where the pregnancy wasn’t was destroyed literally dead... it’s unreal the feeling of never being able to have another baby. I’ve always wanted a big family. I’m blessed to have two already and two bonus kids. Just an empty feeling I have now. Anyone else been through anything similar?