Mental Health

I don’t really post but I need some advice. I’m 16, almost 17. I have a mood disorder that I see a therapist for. I have depression that has lasted since May 2017 till the present. At the end of May, my boyfriend broke up with me after two years. I really miss him and I wish I could get back together with him, but I know that is not ever going to happen. I went through so much with him and I’m crying just thinking about it. This depression is because of the breakup and what my family life is. I have thought about cutting and taking my own life but I made several promises to never do either and I’ve kept to my promises, which is good, but I really don’t know how to live with this depression. It’s been really hard to get through some days. And school isn’t helping. I just put down by my older sister, who is 23, almost 24, all the time for everything I do. I don’t know what to do to help with my depression and I ask you lovely people for some advice.

UPDATE: 11/19/2017

I was trying to talk with Andy but I got his new girlfriend instead and I burst into tears. She sent me a picture of him without his shirt and memories burst through a door. She sent a picture of them kissing and I feel empty. They’ve been dating for only a few months. I don’t feel anything for him anymore. It took me six months to get him to take off his shirt because he was self conscious, but I helped him gain his confidence. It took months to let him kiss me. To be honest, I felt like cutting or doing anything so I didn’t have to feel anything. I don’t know what to do, I feel like utter crap and I just don’t wanna feel anything anymore.