Post Abortion Experience 😢

Hi everyone, so about 6 weeks ago I had an abortion done because my husband and I believe that our professional ambitions are a priority right now (we are newly business owners and we think that if we succeed then we will provide a better future to our baby). Although I understand the logical reasons to why we did it. I can’t help to think about having a baby shower, naming it, decorating a nursery and all cute baby related things. I’m emotionally devastated so I’d like to ask: how has the abortion affected you? And how did you overcome or worked through an unwanted abortion?