Hating my exist right now..

Trying to cope with having genital herpes has probably been one the hardest thing since had to do in my 23 years of living. I found out I had it in early December and things haven’t been too bad until last night.

Threw a house party, drinks are being made left and right and everyone was having a good time. Starting talking to this dude and was like “hey I find you attractive, if you want to stay the night you can. But before we become sexual I need to let you know I have an STD”. Completely honest with him and that’s all I remember.

Fast forward to maybe twenty minutes ago when my roommate says that I told him I had herpes and he went and told the entire party. Not too many people know. Just the two people that I’m closest two...

My heart is crushed. My soul is fucking demolished. It’s the first day of the new year and I already have the urge to over dose and not wake up.

Like I get it. I already feel disgusting as it is but how can people be so fucking cruel..